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Tuesday, March 16, 2010

__I've Finally Found You__

Life is so unfair.

Been very busy with school work lately, thus the lack of time to update my blog. Lots of things happened, and I don't wish to talk much about it. What strikes me will remain in me.

Many things to handle. School exams, re-module lessons, final year project. All the timing are so close to each other that I got no breathing space. I have to constantly remind myself that I've got an appointment with the surgeon regarding the nodule in my body. Only then I will know if I need to do a biopsy test to see if it's benign or malignant, cancerous or non-cancerous. I'm so afraid to leave like the way my mummy did. There are many things I haven't say, many things I haven't do, so I do not want it to be this way.

I've been trying to lift myself up when I fall. When my mood is down, it affects my mood to study. But what did I do? I told myself, "just study and get over with it, the longer you drag, the longer it'll end". I'm learning to deal with problems one step at a time. I ought to get things prioritized.

I don't know what to say. Darling and I, came this far, almost 11 months together. I am so thankful to him. He told me, "I will be here for you". His reminder to me not to worry about that nodule touched me deep down. You know, that kind of assurance you never thought of, just came out and it all seem like a dream. But wait, it's true, not a dream. How sweet he is can never be explained through words.

Alright. I am going to sleep beside him now, and start studying later. I need some rest after the first exam today. Finally, one down, three more to go. I know I can do it.

[<-pRiNcEsSpiNky->] dreaming of my prince charming...|1:35 PM|