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Monday, April 26, 2010

__I've Finally Found You__

Did I hear it wrongly? After darling read up on my entry, he told me things which I still find it unbelievable.

A person like him who used to buy couple ring for his ex-girlfriend, then his ex-girlfriend left him after that, he told me he will not buy couple rings anymore. Yet, he told me that he is actually planning to buy it for me for our first anniversary. Tell me, how can I believe it? It's just unbelievable and I don't pin high hope because I'm no longer waiting for it, not anymore~! I've waited long enough, I got seriously hurt after hearing what he say previously, and that is the reason why I've been buying rings for myself when I go out. And when my ring dropped into the drain while bathing, I got upset because I know I will never be able to get one more of the same kind, especially when I bought it myself after knowing that my boyfriend will never buy it for me. One year, he has never said that he will want to buy it for me. He said he don't like to wear ring and find it troublesome if there's something on his finger. What's worse is that, this ring is going to be worn long-term, unless we break off (touch wood). I still don't believe and I don't think I will want the ring to appear because it's not going to be happy between two person, but just happy on my side.

Whatever the case that is, I don't know how I should feel at this point of time. Not going to talk about this anymore.

I've been feeling sick since morning and I almost fainted. Headache, giddy, and the feeling of wanting to vomit. It must be because I am going to have my period in these few days and these are the symptoms. But this time round, it's worse because I have never felt so weak. I feel hungry, but I don't have the appetite. This made me feel like dying. I want to rest, but the pain is making me unable to rest. I have so many things to do this coming week. I have to go to school in the morning, and I have to meet up my friend to get the wallet at airport at night. I have to complete my powerpoint presentation slides for my final year project, presentation is on 30 April 2010. I have to read up on my final year project to get more familiarize with the contents so that I won't screw up during presentation. I have to buy a new set of formal clothing because the one I have is too big for me. I have to bring the skirt and one of my black pants for alteration because the skirt would be too long for my presentation, and the black pants is for my work purpose. I have so many things to do, yet I have so little time. Or rather, my time is not planned wisely, that's why I find that there is not enough time for me to do everything.

Now, I am going to force myself to sleep. Good night~!

[<-pRiNcEsSpiNky->] dreaming of my prince charming...|12:18 AM|